bamboozaled

hello all! am in a pretty good mood considering its almost one in the morning. im having a really nice chat with zini, and we've just decided that we r bloody fantastic. zinivola, u are an excellent partner in crime, and yes we do have the best plans going. lol, and yes we can go to melbourne to buy records.
am reading a really really good sequal to a book that was pretty damn good, and its giving me great perspective on stuff.
like art-which i want to make time to get back into, and even makes work bareable (oh-someone find zins a job??)and not that bad as a whole.
love the whole working at christmas thing-love singing and dancing in abandoned isles to carols that rerun all day long.
i love the homey feeling, the corny one everyone gets when chrissy comes, dont deny it u all get it.
and writing. i love writing. writing and movie making. it all has to happen someday people, the dreams. and dont forget the memories, its all about the memories! photos are everything
dont you just love being creative?
dont u love finding out that they still do, and you have satisfaction that u rule?
isnt it the greatest when you may not get a happy ending, but the vengful fairy comes along and works her magic for you?
i really love that fairy. and our new ice cream too.
things always work out to a degree of what u want, if u want it hard enough. (if not, try harder damnit)

ive been ordered to update by that gorgeous girl who is in love with me. so i am. just for and to her. look forward to the big night, something good is bound to happen for every 10 bad things, and dont fret, ill be there for all the bad things. we'll get a kick out of most of it. and dont forget the food-an important element which everyone does. the pasta, the cabanara, my god. and getting dolled up is always fun. i cant believe my fabulous plan for after worked. im a gen-i-us. i tells you all. bow down to me. and then give me cookies. or hazlenut ice cream!!! its sooo damn good. i just made brownies, ill give you one tomorrow, in our last ever chip free. how saddening. u also have to sign my shirt. ill show u what he wrote, i even had to decorate it. blah. im over it a bit. its better for real this time. i swear, not totally but a good half way. well mickey mouse says its late, so ill go for a shower. u better always keep in touch tho. ur the best one. so dont leave me alone. ok? good. jervis bay-here we come! goodnite crazy slut. xxx

i finally found it! thank god it took forever. and then do u really want to talk? or just ignore? or maybe its not the time. yet.? or will yet come if it ever wants to? its confusing. be yourself. but is that really urself or just wat u want to be around others? jesus. and then wat about others? r they how they want to be normally? or are they just being like that cause u r there? do they really ignore or r they acting? is everyone acting? how can u tell? wat if u dont want to tell? actually scrap that-of course u want to tell. u need it straight-not complex to soften the blow, but simple and clean cut to make it less confusing and better in the long run. the long run sucks. then again it could all change tomorrow. im just sick of being confused. is anyone else? it seems like everyone else is fine. almost perfect even. or at least comfortable. and focused. damn them all. but its a tired damning. im not bloody pissed.

today is that glorious day on which i was born. it happened 18 years ago, when god decided the world was shit without me. he wanted to liven up the world with someone very cool, extremely funny and oddly eccentric, so here i am people. ha ha ha. shut up its my birthday and i can say watever the hell i want. its been a good day. i was listening to story of a girl while walkin to my omas this morning, it was sunny, i had my uber cool sunnies on and it was the best feelin ever. ever!
dont really feel like writing, i just watched ally, with BON JOVI! whose really hot and now im tired. bed. yay.

its almost my birthday-why arent i excited? last nite went too fast. i didnt even get hardly any food. why is it impossible to concentrate? and what is with everything going by so fast? like its all slipping away? thats sounds soo emo but it is damn it. i hate change, but everything and everyone is. its shit. its like waking up from some weird dream where everyone has jumped 10 years ahead, leaving you alone, trying to catch up. actually, thats a good idea for a movie. or is it already a movie? why cant i be a director?!?!?!?!? give me a camera, anything! does anyone consider themselves a dreamer? i do. and its crap-cause u realise its impossible to be what you dream. like a famous cheif, or a singer or a traveling postman. it would be cool to get paid for doing something u love, which is basically what everyone wants, but do u think its possible? or only if u win lotto??? wat r ur thoughts? please comment so i can survey wat everyone thinks. give me ur comments on why life can be shit. and why change is crap. this is really just a way of bitching with the livejournal community really. how sad.

in general, life is shitty most of the time. dont laugh or for those of u who are emo, dont cry. life is pretty crap and when everything seems to be going good, suddenly something happens to make everything shit. it happens to everyone. ha, thats right-u cant escape, ur not the special one to be avoided. im talkin to u jason u!!! nah im not really, its just that u are standing next to me. and im rambling (which is always fun) and ur name keeps poppin up. why??? friggin hell, u ruined everything, bloody everything. jebediah help. they understand. oh, and the goo goo dolls need a mention. dont know what to write, i never do on here cause who knows who will be reading. who cares anymore, i guess.
do u ppl know what??!!?!?! over-analysing and reading into stuff sux. and it ruins everything. and i hate pretty much most things at the moment. lala, except quizes. im princess ariel and linda is a flaming toaster. pretty cool eh?

have you ever had a really good day? actually thats exaggerating, but it was a fairly alright day. i had a fantastic art lesson...even though someone decided not to come to class. u bum. oh, and has anyone read terry pratchett/ cause hes a god and is one of the funniest men alive, besides rove and gary larson. anyway, this is prob really broken up cause i keep getting interrupted, by the way, stupid msn ppl! u need to have usernames and emails that have ur name or part of it in there so i know who u bloody are! for gods sake! its not that difficult, why must u disguise urselves!
i dont really have anything to say...stupid someone isnt on msn to talk to, so im going. goodbye and dont forget ur toothbrush

evening,
im updating not to suit myself, but to satisfy two people. u know who u are, as u are the only people to comment on my live journal, and because i happen to be on msn with u both right now.
so wat has everyone been doing lately? nothing much? me either. so much school work its ridiculous, and i cant seem to get enough sleep either.
thats the cause of spelling mistakes, person number one, not my retarded typing, its the lack of sleep.
so did i have fun at matts?
to be perfectly frank... nah im kidding. course it was awsome. i heard tom stripped down to boxers and went swiming around 10 or 11, and was very sorry to have missed that. lots of band crashers, um...crashed. and matts mum made these really nice garlic things. tasty. and writing urself over were awsome as usual, but i was worried about josh later on.
so wat else has happened? i have finally seen school of rock, and its good, very funny. entertaining. oh, i heard mel got a new phone, thats cool, very cool. so...stuff eh?? thats cool.
um...i had mac and cheese for lunch and it was good. and the good fuji apples are in season again and they were good too.
id put up pics, but uve already seen them on eva and ambers live journals, i just steal mine from them, cause their great. so this is a rather pointless entry. friggin hell, something exciting must have happened????!
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nothin, ok then. once i get back to school the drama will start up again and ill narrate the whole term in my live journal, a kind of soap opera, only with more drama and worse writing.
have a good nite everyone (even though theres only bout another hour left of it) and remember that cows will someday rule the world. along with chocolate peanut butter. if anyone has seen or heard or tasted it yet, please write and discuss it with me, i cant tell yet if i like it.
ps:holy shit!!! i just found out that i downloaded school of rock!!! i have no idea how...ah well. night.

well if it isnt all you nerdy mcnerds. yes everyone is very funny, everyones a bloody comedian.

wat you say bought on this bat of sarcasim??? well i say, its because as soon as i get a cool livejournal and new msn, nobody is bloody on the net!!!

jeez people, you call urselfs internetn freaks (or maybe it was just me), u havent commented and no ones on msn!! u people r really harsh.

ah well, ill complain to u again tomorrow i guess. its just the hand you were dealt.

(reference to rice man, eva, dave and amber-who constantly use that damn quote)

hello all you live journal junkies, i am now joining you.

because this is my first live entry, i feel i should add something interesting to it, to entertain you all. but because of my laziness, i wont.

please try to refrain from rolling your eyes, and get used to the orange typing.

talk to u all very, very soon.

(and by very very soon, i mean in a while from now).